Seventy seven days, two hours, and fifteen minutes since I last spoke to you.
After that moment, all was gone, never to be returned as you're left without a clue
Maybe it's not fair that I never told you why I gave up on us
Why all at one moment every inch of what we had was crushed.
Every so often, I pull up a message for you, and as my fingers lingers on the send key,
It slowly moves right past it, further and further away from you and me
I wish I had the strength to tell you why everything came tumbling down
But it's too late for honesty and apologies and you pulling me up off the ground
Cause I've lifted myself up on my own
I refused to let the pain I put myself through show
Yes, I have regrets, too many to count
And I'm rethinking if you're a person I can live my life without
But on that day I decided I would never let you push me around again
And there's no going back now, no matter how much I need you as a friend
I've gone through too much work getting over you to try and build back up what we had
But I just want you to know, you deserve a best friend who has all that I lack
But that friend is just not me,
And I think you always knew it wasn't going to be
But this whole thing was for you, and I only wish you knew it
But you deserve much better than me, you're amazing to have pushed through it
I'm not saying the reason I gave up was all because of me
I'm just saying I hope you have a chance to really, truly be happy